“All our struggles are part of a bigger plan and happy endings do exist”

Its 1 am and I’m awake thinking about school. Instead of sleeping and resting my body for my math test tomorrow, I’m stressing out about raising my average and counting down the number of tests I have till my final exam.

Does that sound like you? That’s been me for weeks now, and not just with math. Its been hard to find an outlet to let the stress away, especially since the weight of the classes seems to pile on me. My parents even requested me to stop baking till my grades go up but I’ve stated a baking company called Miss Khan’s Cupcakery and I’m actually getting orders. I’ve held off on all my orders till summer because I can’t afford to waste a precious minute of my week.

It’s crazy how the end of my junior year is here. I’m finishing this year in less than two weeks and I have so many grades to raise and so many things to do excel in. My SAT is this Saturday and I’m getting butterflies in my tummy thinking about it. I’ve prepped all year for it, but to be honest, I’m not a good test taker. I’m a better writer and I prefer taking essay tests rather than bubbling circles to measure my knowledge.

I’ve actually been feeling really sad for a couple of weeks. All the hard work, effort, and time that I’ve put to my work isn’t being paid off. Take my AP bio class for instance. My group and I were working on a project about morbillivirus infecting dolphins and I spent so much time on that project, more time than my whole group, but my teacher gave us a group grade based off of one random person’s presentation. I didn’t think it was an accurate representation of the grade I should have received on the project, especially since our score was so low.

Coming to school everyday and pretending that everything is okay and hiding my struggles is hard. Especially when life keeps crushing on my head and there is no where to turn.

But that’s why we have best friends.

Meet Rachel Nguyen. She’s one of my best friends.

Happiest when I see her early morning.

Happiest when I see her early morning.

Rachel and I got to know each other last August, when I first met her in my zero period journalism class. We instantly clicked on the first day we started talking and I could see a potential best friend from the beginning. Its crazy to see how alike we are in everything we do. From personal interests to school, we help each other out and sacrifice so much to see each other happy.

Rachel is the first person I see when I get to school at 7 am and I think I’m so lucky that she understands me so well. We’re both such passionate journalists who love writing and motivate each other a lot. When I’m really stressed out about my grades, worried about a math test coming up, struggling with a lab,  or have too many projects booked in a week, she’s the first person I turn to, and she always responds so positively.

The most important thing I learned from her this year is to be happy and always encourage people. Rachel emits a contagious happy vibe and people around her notice it as well. There hasn’t been a day that’s gone where she’s unnecessarily upset or complaining.

It’s the last week for seniors at school and I’m sad to see her go. I’m not losing a best friend, because I know we’ll be close forever; but I’m just going to miss her a lot because I love her so much.

Trust me, they don’t say junior year is the worst for no reason. But best friends know how to make life better.

Khanfectionately,

Zainab

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